Effects.

The effects of Trey's death on Lily these past few months are just absolutely devostating.


Just recently we were at the store and Lily saw a man that looked insanely like T, I tried to detour so that Lily wouldn't see him, but she did. Her face lit up almost instantly she ran up to him screaming Daddy, Daddy. He turned around and in that split second her face went from excited to shocked, scared and then absolutely shattered.
I had to abandon the shop all together because she was so upset, screaming and hyperventilating to all hours of the night screaming for her beloved Dada!

She often wakes up in the middle of the night, at least once a week. Screaming for him and just telling me that she wished he was here with her. On special events she knows her Dad should be with her and say "Mommy, I wish Daddy could be here to see me"


The worst part about the whole situation is not that I have lost my husband, it's that my children now do not have a father. A man that Lily has loved and adored since the day she was born, the day she came into this world she had him wrapped around her little finger! I also feel so bad that Chloe will never know how great her Dad was, never fall in love the way Lily did and I just feel terrible!

I just want my girls to have their Daddy back.