i need to come to grips with the fact that i will never see you again.

everytime i see someone count down the days till their husbands come home from deployment my heart breaks a little more.

mandatory.

So I haven't posted a blog since a lifetime ago.
Not much really happens at all, eat, school, sleep and repeat. everyday.
I have been having a terrible time lately.
I feel like everything is falling apart when really i have everything i need.
Except that one thing of course. Him.
People can't even say his name around me without me running and locking myself in my room for the rest of the day. Well okay not the rest of the day but until the girls come to my rescue.
Fact of the matter is
I want my other half back. It's not a want it's a full blown need that i throw tantrums over worse then my kids.

JUST. COME. BACK.